Is the sweetness worth the bitterness?

The very first time I had my laptop, I bought it from Karamunsing. At that time, I had a notion that all laptops’ specs are no different as long as the price range is more or less the same. A week after buying it, I regretted it as soon as I realized Shidi bought a better laptop with the same price. Had I surveyed the choices first and brought along an expert with me, I wouldn’t have to carry the regret with me for the next 2 years. Investment sucks.

The same goes to car...

The same goes to house...

The same goes to property...

And spouse...

... He called me. We spoke. He asked me about marriage.

And I told him I am scared.  

He said, ‘you should be’.

Then I asked him, ‘if you had any other choices, would you have chosen the other over the one you married?

And he said “yes”.

I am now still in a state of dismay.

It saddens me, truly. 

Running... running... running to find the answer. But the journey is not always pleasing

The beautiful brain

I discovered that I am more flattered when people call me ‘smart’ instead of ‘lawa’. Though everything must be balanced, intelligence ought to be slightly important than beauty. You can fake beauty. You can put on makeup and appear presentable for 4? 5? Hours? Then the concealer would seem cakey, mascara would smudge underneath your eyes and lipstick would wear off along with the ‘beauty’. You are thinking that you have the perfect 32-24-32 body but his definition of a smouldering body is 36-26-40. In the Victorian era, the more corpse-like you appear, the more beautiful people considered you to be; the bustier you looked, the more bachelors would be attracted to you. Now, well, tan and skinny scream the latest fashion. (Betulka ayatnya tu?)

Intelligence is different. I consider it as part of your personality. The way you carry yourself, the way you deal with problems, the way you respond to criticism and etc.  Your intelligence makes people stay. It amuses them, I guess. While ‘beauty’ can be achieved through make up, surgery and Photoshop  intelligence is not something to be gained in a short period of time. It takes a whole lot of effort to read, to mingle with the right people and to make judgement about subjective things, in fact. Not everybody can do that.

Intelligence is eternal; beauty is ephemeral.

P/S: But do put a little bit of makeup on. :P 

Another P/S: I adore and despise Clare at the same time. Her writing is immaculate and people listen to her when she speaks. And people find her cute ,too. Isn't that annoying? hahahaha

She is, hands down, a bombshell. But she eventually committed suicide.
Perhaps if she was prudent enough, her life wouldn't have ended miserably.