Knackered

I don't understand...
Asking us not to be like expert teachers
Who own years of experience and more knowledge
Yet you demand for such expertise from us

I just don't understand

Kisah yang sempurna

I am not very fond of Malay soap operas. The tacky story line and the indifferent actors are always disagreeable to me. Like how it always has happy endings, like how they always be together at the end of the day, get married and live happily ever after, like how all the villains always have the same expression while hugging the good guy (lifting their left brow, squinting their eyes and smiling) and like how their sons are always swapped in the hospital! Please notice the frequent use of 'always'. That is not how life usually works out, you know. Do you think taking someone's child away from the hospital is a piece of cake? Try it out first, and then make a movie out of it. 

But the other day, I watched it! Of course, throughout the drama i rolled my eyes, I cursed, I laughed (rofl some more) and I got annoyed. The drama is called 'Cinta Halal' and I never thought it is the first one to ever make me think deeply. It is a story about a man, wishing to get married to a woman who is wearing hijab, well-mannered, comes from a good family and has intellectual advantage as well. In the end, he discovered that the woman is just pretending to be his 'ideal woman'. And in his disappoinment, he said in this prayer (loudly, of course, drama Melayu):

"Maafkan aku, Ya Allah. Aku terlalu mengharapkan yang sempurna, terlalu menginginkannya sehingga aku terlupa, tiada yang sempurna di dunia ini, Ya Allah, melainkan Engkau"

Don't you think so? Well, I think so. To end, I shall proudly present you with the picture below. 

Should I not be angry?

I am so depressed that I don't have the medium to channel my frustration
I can't tell the lecturers that I haven't learned anything
I can't tell the examiner that i haven't anything 
All the presentations were merely a means to finish all the syllabus
without taking into consideration
'Do they understand'
'What can they do with this presentation? topic? input?
Input?
Can you even call it input?
Input downloaded from the internet! Haha! 
Call it an absurd
An absurd that might cost me a lifetime regret :(

1 week before the 'SPM' exam ... Shift 9... Shift 10... Shift 101
'Sir, will this come out in the exam?'
'No!'
We endeavoured to make the lessons enticing
We discussed issues
We argued, we agreed, we wondered...
Can the teachers cope with it?
Is the shift going to work?
Wait... is this going to come out in the exam?
'No!'

'So sir, what will come out in the exam?'
'Chapter 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 and criteria for textbook selection'
*LOST*
'Give me 15 minutes'
PRESENTING CRITERIA FOR TEXTBOOK SELECTION
15 minutes... 20 minutes... 30 minutes! 
Input? Intake?
Absolutely 101% no.  
Though I was present, I am uncertain of my presence
Just sitting there, fulfilling my societal role as a student
As the Malay proverb say 'Masuk angin keluar asap'

Spotted questions!
What is this? What is this?
Owh, this is the one which he EXPOSED us to for 15 minutes? 30 minutes?
Ahh... 1 week before the exam, the day when he realized that what might come out in the exam

Then, should I not be angry?