Engkau

Even 'I love you' is an understatement :)

Engkau senantiasa dalam doaku wahai kawan kesayanganku.
Cubit paha kau, paha aku yang rasa
Hati kau sakit, hati aku pun sakit
My countenance may appear as if I am unaffected
Like you, I endure the agony with great fortitude
But deep down, my heart is shattered too. 


I may have not the knowledge to comfort you.
But dont forget to remember, 
I am here to at least accompany you
and He is here, there, everywhere.


"(Know that true) believers are only those who have attained to faith in God and His Messenger and have left all doubt behind, and who strive hard in God's cause with their possessions and their lives: it is they, they who are true to their word!" (49: 15)
"So lose not heart, nor fall into despair: for you must gain mastery if you are true in  Faith" (3: 139)


You have to be strong! You have to and i believe that you can :)

Acknowledgement...

I would like to express my gratitude...
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Finally, I would like to dedicate this dissertation to my loving parents,
for their undivided love...

Wait, isn't it a shame that,
What you have in hand for your parents,
Is the worst written work ever done
hence the worst present they can ever get?

Stupidity

We lie to the people we love; we lie for the people we love.


The pleasure I pursue which culture has restrained, is now close to be known
And I know, such impenetrable act annoys you  
Whatever the issue is, it is far from my intention to be hypocrite.
I just fear, losing somebody that I love

I am so sorry... 

Just like facebook

When I first had my facebook, I was so eager to check my notifications. So looking forward to read every comment and reply. So frequent in updating my status. 
But now, nothing fascinates me. All in facebook has been made so familiar, so dull and so not worth  visiting. 


Similar to my academic performance. When I was first acquainted with this course, in my heart, I thought, 
'this is what I want to do in life. This is it. This is what I like. I can't imagine myself doing some other courses'. I promised myself, Yes, I will do well. 
But the motivation is so ephemeral.  The battle is long enough to detract the dream from being achieved.
The books seem so uninspiring, the modules appear senseless. There is just no warrant for such folly as coursework!

I have no clue, whether to laugh at life or to despair. Either way, 

I HAVE LOST MY MOTIVATION.